For most of my life, I believed war was something
that happened on maps, in newspapers, and in speeches made by men in uniforms.
I learned the truth much earlier than I should have—when I was ten years
old—when I discovered that a woman’s body could become a contested
territory, claimed not by armies, but by silence, paperwork,
and power.
My name was Maïs du Roc.
I was born in 1924,
in Saint-Rémi-sur-Loir,
a village so small it rarely appeared in administrative registries, let alone
military intelligence files. We lived between vineyards and wheat fields, in a
France that still believed distance could protect it. My father repaired
clocks. My mother baked bread. Time moved slowly, predictably, safely.
My sisters
were my entire world.
Aurore,
nineteen, wanted to become a schoolteacher.
Séverine,
older and quieter, embroidered wedding dresses she never wore.
We did not
speak of politics. We did not speak of Germany. We believed the war would pass
us by.
It did not.
Arrest Without Charges, Deportation Without Records
In June 1942, German
occupation forces arrived at our door before sunrise. There were no
accusations, no legal notices, no explanation. Just orders.
My mother fell
to her knees. My father was pushed against the wall. We were classified,
without discussion, as “labor resources”—a
bureaucratic phrase that stripped us of personhood in a single stroke.
We were loaded
into a truck with other young women. No destination. No documentation we could
see. No rights we could invoke.
This was not a
death camp. That distinction would later be used to minimize what happened.
It was
something more difficult to prosecute.
A Camp Outside the Law
The camp was administered not by faceless guards, but
by a single authority figure:
Oberst
Friedrich von Steiner, a high-ranking Wehrmacht officer.
He was not
violent in public. He did not shout. He governed through administrative
discretion—deciding work assignments, housing, food rations,
medical access, and something referred to only as “special
selection.”
The camp
operated in a legal gray zone:
·
not
registered as an extermination facility
·
not
governed by civilian courts
·
not
inspected by neutral observers
What happened
there was later dismissed as “isolated misconduct.”
That dismissal
would follow us for decades.
Three Sisters, Three Pregnancies, Zero Accountability
First, Séverine was selected.
Then Aurore.
Then me.
I will not
describe the acts themselves. History does not require explicit detail to
understand coercion,
abuse
of power, and systematic violation.
By winter, all
three of us were pregnant.
Three sisters.
Three pregnancies.
One commanding officer.
When the pregnancies
became visible, the response was administrative, not moral.
We were
informed:
·
the
children would be registered as war orphans
·
they
would be removed
immediately after birth
·
they
would be placed with German families through
undisclosed channels
·
we
would return to labor as soon as medically possible
No consent
forms.
No appeals process.
No legal recourse.
Birth as a Transaction, Not a Human Event
Séverine gave birth in April 1943.
Her daughter was taken before she could hold her.
Séverine died
weeks later. The official cause was typhus. No investigation followed.
Aurore gave
birth in May.
She held her son for a few hours. That was all.
I gave birth
in June,
to a boy.
They removed him the next day.
The paperwork
classified the process as “child transfer.”
Disappearance of the Perpetrator, Erasure of the
Victims
As Allied forces advanced, von Steiner
vanished.
No arrest
record.
No tribunal appearance.
No extradition request.
The files
associated with the camp were declared incomplete or destroyed.
After the war,
France rebuilt. Germany rebuilt. Europe moved forward.
Women like us
were administrative
inconveniences—living reminders of unresolved crimes.
Post-War Silence and Legal Abandonment
I returned home. My mother had died. My father did
not recognize me.
There was no
psychological support. No compensation program. No legal framework for mothers
whose children had been forcibly transferred across borders under military
authority.
International
law had no category for us yet.
So I became
invisible.
The Letter That Reopened the Case
In 1953, I received a
letter from Munich. One sentence. No signature.
It led me to a
former nurse who had preserved fragments of camp documentation—illegal
copies of transfer registers that were supposed to be
destroyed.
There, in ink
that had outlived the regime that wrote it, was my name.
And below it:
my son’s birth date
his transfer date
the name of a foster family
This was not a
miracle.
It was
evidence.
A Twenty-Year Search Through Closed Archives
What followed was nearly two decades of
legal dead ends:
·
destroyed
adoption records
·
sealed
military archives
·
uncooperative
ministries
·
lawyers
who explained that my case was “unique” and therefore unsolvable
Forced wartime
adoptions existed in a legal vacuum.
No restitution laws applied retroactively.
No court wanted jurisdiction.
Finding My Son—and Losing Him Again
I found him in Austria.
He was alive.
He had a family.
He had been told his mother died in the war.
When I told
him the truth, he did not reject me out of cruelty—but out of psychological
survival. His identity had been built on a lie reinforced by
the state.
We met. We
spoke. We tried.
But some
separations cannot be repaired by truth alone.
Why This Story Still Matters
My son died in 2005.
I gave my testimony in 2010.
I died in 2015.
No official
apology ever came.
No reparations were granted.
No registry was completed.
The children
born in camps like ours were never fully counted.
Their mothers were never officially acknowledged.
But history is
not only written by courts.
It is written
by testimony.
The Unfinished Legal and Moral Reckoning
What happened to us raises questions that remain
unresolved:
·
forced
wartime adoption legality
·
crimes
committed outside extermination camps
·
responsibility
of commanding officers
·
state
complicity through silence
·
intergenerational
trauma and restitution
These are not
just historical issues.
They are ongoing
legal and ethical failures.
Why Remembering Is an Act of Resistance
Silence protected perpetrators.
Forgetting protected institutions.
Memory is the
only remaining form of justice.
This is not
just my story.
It is the story of thousands of women whose names were erased because their
existence complicated victory narratives.
If this story
unsettled you, it should.
Because wars
do not end when treaties are signed.
They end only when truth is acknowledged.
And that reckoning is still overdue.

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