Sue
was left in a cardboard box as a small child. Luckily, a store clerk took her
home and changed the course of her entire life. Now, in the form of an
unexpected knock at the door, Sue has to face her past and the disappointment
that comes with it. Is this a grand reunion or the biggest disappointment of
Sue’s life?
I
was left in a cardboard box in a supermarket twenty years ago. I was just a few
months old, and all I had to my name were a few photos of my mother and a note.
The
note read: I will always love you, Sue.
Nobody
knew my surname or whether I had a middle name. Nobody seemed to know my mother
or what had happened to my father. I was all alone in a world that didn’t know
anything about me.
But
even then, at a few months old, I seemed to be fortune’s fool. I was found by a
kind store clerk, Ruby, who took me in.
“I
couldn’t leave you there, Sue,” she would say whenever the story came up. “I
became your guardian shortly after and raised you as my own. You became my
little bug.”
Ruby
was everything to me. And as I grew, the closer we became.
I
was forever grateful that she gave me everything I needed. But still, I never
stopped wondering why my mother left me and if she would ever come back.
“I
know that it bothers you, darling,” Ruby told me one day as she made lasagna
for dinner. “But she’s an enigma now. We have nothing that could lead us to
her.”
“I
know,” I said, grating more cheese for when the dish was ready. “It’s just
frustrating when I start thinking about it.”
“You
love the internet, you love social media, Sue. Use it, share your story, maybe
it will resonate with people, and you can connect with others just like you.”
She
opened the oven and put the tray of lasagna inside.
So
I did just that, and I became a well-known video blogger, sharing my story with
the world.
“You’ve
created a safe platform for people to share their stories, too,” Ruby told me
when I read comments from my latest video to her.
“It
means something to me,” I said, helping myself to the eclairs on the table.
Fast
forward to the present. I am successful and able to provide for myself and my
guardian.
“So
much for being an abandoned baby,” I said to myself as I washed my face one
night.
But
imagine my surprise when an unexpected knock on my door changed everything.
I
opened the door to find a frail, older woman standing there, her eyes filled
with regret and desperation.
“Sue,
darling,” she said. “I am your mother, and I need your help!”
I
just looked at her, unable to blink for fear of missing the moment.
“Do
you still have the note I left with you when I left you safely in the store?”
Safely?
I thought to myself. I stood there, paralyzed by the flood of emotions that had
come in when she entered my home.
“Yes,
I have it,” I said, my voice barely above a whisper. “I kept it.”
“I
know I have no right to ask for your help after what I did, but I need you to
believe me when I say I had no choice back then. I was running from a dangerous
situation. And I thought leaving you in a safe place was the only way to
protect you. I needed to disappear.”
“What
kind of situation?” I asked.
I
had wondered about this moment for years. And every second that went by, I was
just disappointed by the reunion with my birth mother.
She
hesitated, looking down at her hands.
“There
were people after me, people who wouldn’t stop until they got what they wanted.
I stole something once, just to help me out financially. I stole the wrong thing
from the wrong people. I had to keep you safe. So I left you.”
Of
course, my mother was shady.
“You
could have come back sooner. You could have tried to find me.”
“I
know, but I was scared.”
I
took a deep breath, trying to process everything.
“What
do you need help with?”
She
looked up, her eyes pleading.
“I
need a place to stay, just for a little while, until I can get back on my feet.
I have nowhere else to go.”
My
heart ached. But I knew that Ruby would want me to say yes. She would tell me
to do it. I could almost hear her words in my head.
“That’s
your birth mother, Sue. Help her,” Ruby would say, most likely bribing me with
something to eat.
“Okay,”
I said finally. “You can stay. But this doesn’t mean everything is forgiven. We
have a lot to talk about.”
She
nodded, tears streaming down her cheeks.
“Thank
you. I promise, I’ll make things right.”
She
reached down, picked up a worn duffel bag, and followed me in.
The
first few days went by relatively smoothly. My mother seemed genuinely
remorseful and tried to help around the house.
“I’ll
cook and I’ll clean for you, darling,” she said.
But
it didn’t last long.
One
evening, I came home earlier from the local radio studio where I was being
interviewed for my content. The house was unusually quiet.
Walking
to my bedroom, I heard the faint sound of drawers opening and closing.
And
there she was, standing there in front of my open jewelry box, my most precious
pieces clutched in her hands.
“What
are you doing?” I demanded, unable to contain my rage, but also wanting to keep
calm at the same time.
She
looked up, startled, and for a moment, I saw a flash of guilt in her eyes.
“I
was just… I thought maybe I could sell some of these to help me out. They’re
heavy, so they’re real.”
“Of
course, they’re real! They’re gifts from my mother! She saved up for years just
so that she could get that diamond necklace for my 18th birthday. And you want
to steal from me?”
She
looked shocked, like the wind had been knocked from her sails.
“You
have so much, darling,” she said, almost whimpering. “I just thought that you
wouldn’t miss a few pieces. We could use the money.”
“We?
This isn’t about us; it’s about you. And it’s not about money, either. It’s
about trust. You said that you wanted to make things right, but all you’ve
shown me is that I cannot trust you.”
She
reached out to me, but I stepped back.
“Please,
don’t do this, Sue. I can change. I just need some time.”
I
shook my head, tears of betrayal and disappointment filling my eyes.
“I
gave you a chance. I let you into my home. I let you meet Ruby. And you still
chose to betray me. No, I’m sorry. But you need to leave.”
Her
face crumpled, and she pulled a tissue from my vanity.
“Please,
just one more chance,” she said.
“I
can’t,” I said, my voice breaking. “You need to go.”
“Sue,
I gave birth to you,” she said, putting the necklace down.
“And
you left me in a box,” I said.
I
watched as she gathered her things and left, the duffel bag looking
considerably fuller than when she arrived. But I didn’t have it in me to fight
her again.
Sadness
and disappointment weighed me down heavily. But there was also a sense of
relief.
Later,
I went over to Ruby’s house. It was the one place that would always feel like
home to me.
“Darling
girl,” she said, flipping grilled cheese onto a plate. “You took a chance on
someone who loved you, that’s what you take away from this experience.”
I
smiled at her. At the woman who had taken me home in a heartbeat and had loved
me ever since.
But
now, I worry that I’ve just sent my birth mother back into the world she had
been trying to escape from.
Was I right in my decision?
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